Ho ly

Pick a body and go inside.

LP

A few I would like to buy

Church Peepole(?) {rant-rant-rant}

tonight i went to a LifeGroup put on by the Church I go to. I used to attend another LifeGroup for a slightly younger group.(though I was never actually sure if it was a younger crowd...I might have been the same age grouping, just a different group- it doesn't have too much relevance either way.) After listening to people talking in the group I began thinking about people, when they want something...Like, some people don't pray to God, go to Church or do anything, unless they are in trouble, or Need some sort of "help" (whatever that may be) though, by the same thinking- your not going to use a hammer if you don't need it... -also, I know no more than the next human here on Earth, so take everything I am saying with a grain of salt because I (obviously) know no more than anyone else... I am just someone who is recording a theory, and you can take it, or leave it.- There are a few people that everyone has [at least] met. ya know; those 'holier than thou' assholes..? ...those people that are the biggest assholes during 5/6 of the week, but on Sunday, they are 'peachy keen' Those are the type of people I started thinking about; It's almost like they go through their week being assholes, then they go on Sunday to 'renew' their 'sin card' in which they go out into the world after the service and can go be assholes some more. At some point people can look at this situation and think that these 'types of people' (and I really don't know if anyone who thinks like this attends The Cause, but I wouldn't put it past Any Church, seeing that these type of people are EVERYWHERE, so, you cannot escape them, you can only be concerned with your stuff and "Keep On Keep'n On." [where was I going with this?] well, I was thinking that normally people would get angry at this and think "oh! THOSE kind of people! I hate THEM!" because {even if if tell this reference to someone who does this} they won't Admit to it. they always think it is someone else. And then I was thinking that I shouldn't really look down on anyone who judges others for doing dumb crap because Jesus was prosecuted by the church for being around whores and murderers, people were getting mad because Jesus was hanging around whore houses (and other such places) and people were getting confused that Jesus wasn't teaching those who seeked his wisdom/power etc... it was because those {unsavory} individuals are the ones who needed Jesus. - can't remember...where the Heck was I going with this? ..OH YEAH!... ...Stay out of My Booze!

"Fu**ed."

I THOUGHT that I would write something on this ma-jigg while someone (anyone) is still reading it... ...not that it matters a huge amount... i think I am at this intersection of my life where I am just...Stuck. my friend, i won't say his name, he doesn't read this, nor will he ever...but I'll refer to him as GA. Either way,Ihaven't spoken to GA in, years, but I remember something he said to me when we were drunk on my 18th birthday. (yes...A while ago.) but he was talking about himself... he said; "...I feel...I feel like I am Fucked...I keep trying to tell people about this and no one gets it, hopefully you will. but I feel 'stuck'I feel 'Stuck' ...actually, I am 'Fucked' And there is a HUGE difference. the difference is that when you are 'Stuck' you 'can't find the answer' while if you are 'Fucked'; There IS No Answer." -For whatever reason, that really resignated with me, and it has stayed with me for all this time...since high school, and I graduated '07...which is kind of scary...

1988

I am not sure what to do with myself. Born in 1988 Give or take. You are not crying for me- oh argentina. when you smile- you smile with all of your teeth at once. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Oh Tokyo Police Club-----okay- now the actual Blog entry starts; Alright- well, I am really in the situation of not knowing what to do with myself. I can just go through life and be bored, i dunno, I feel like I might commit suicide if i do that....I realize that I may have mentioned killing myself right there, and I don't Actually ever want to kill myself, or hurt ANYONE for that matter. In fact, it almost seems that committing suicide is something that lazy people do because they feel pain, or don't see a point to anything (or whatever your situation is) and they (more or less) say "fuck it" and "get acquainted with 'Dirty Harry'." Either way, my depression is just boredom [I'm sure] I am in bed most mornings when I wake up and I think: "What is the point of getting out of bed?" Not in a "Eff the World" sort of way, more of- Bored, I actually have NOTHING to do if I get out of bed. i need something or someone and to make it clear- I AM NOT going to hurt/kill myself or anyone else...EVER. So if you read the first few lines of this, freaked out, then skimmed to the end, I should write more often... ...pokemon...

Watching

Adventure land...I love this movie.

Bill burr

You’re a kid, your whole life is awesome. It’s awesome, right? You had no money, no ID, no cell phone, no nothing, no keys to the house. You just ran outside into the woods. You weren’t scared of nothing. I challenge you to do that as an adult. All your IDs, all your credit cards — just run out of the house with no phone, turn the corner where you can’t see your house, and not have a full on panic attack.

Awake*

Why am still up?

I'm not doing anything...

...I began trying to think of ways that I could come up with $200 for reasons that I will not disclose at the current time.

Hmm...

Well, I suppose I. Should just try to go to sleep now.

...I am not that Lucky...

09-25-14 (journal[?])

I would first like to point out that I am typing this on a

 QWERTY keyboard that is NOT pressure sensitive, the iPad, great machine, but I find it to be one of my own faults to be that  it is much harder to type on a completely flat screen than it is to type on a normal keyboard.

But it is the way we've been groomed growing up I suppose.

Either way. I suppose the real reason I am writing this is to vent a bit. First. I feel like I am getting older too fast. I'm not saying that I am "old" ...I am saying that if feels as though I one day woke up and I was 25, 

I can remember bits and pieces of it, but it all seems sort or blurry.

Either way. For the first time ever, i'am becoming nostalgic for my High SChool days...and I feel ridiculous for it.

So in my search of nostalgia  remnants of High School I began Messaging a girl I was good friends with in High School named ----- I'll spare you the boredom of the entire story, but I will explain that she (at one time) liked me, ----- had a boyfriend, who was a good friend of mine, so I kept my distance. 

I mean, I really liked -----... But I knew she liked me, more than a friend, so I told her that we couldn't be together and whether or not we were together, she should explain to her Boyfriend that she liked me. We each went our own ways after graduation. I heard that she had an eating disorder or something at some point of college. In which I thought that calling to make sure she was alright would be smart...but it would also be hypocritical since I knew that the reason she was acting out May have something to do with me. And I didn't even shake up that beehive. 

So tonight I struck up a conversation online a and I she told me she was married, I knew already. And I am guessing that she said something about her liking me in high school, because he no longer wanted her to speak to me. On one hand I am sort of mad because I didn't have any sexual....ANYTHING built up inside of me for Kelsi. But on the other hand, kelsi is a greAt person, and would be amazing to spend the rest of your life with... But I am not that lucky...

So have you ever wondered; "what is Andrew doing right now?" yeah, me neither. but, it till be answered anyway, i will have the webcam on - live-streaming at different times of the day, so if you bored enough, just check it out! there isn't signing in or anything. you just go to the site and a window comes up with the live feed... https://oncast.com/d/ce91f

I just finished watching The First Pirates of the Carrabbean and i have the same opinion of the 3 movies as I did with the 3 matrix films; THEY SHOULD HAVE STOPPED AT THE FIRST ONE....

What's The Point?

I need to start doing something with my writing, i have bits and pieces  of ideas and chapters scattered throughout my computer, and  little hand-written notes that I have used to remember certain things...
...I start thinking that there really is NO POINT- well, actually, the point is; experience and people around you that you enjoy during your life.
though the experiences and people won't matter once you are dead, and you, me, anyone will only matter for a little while when we first die.

-I mean, I'm not saying this to depress the hell out of you or anything, it's just something i was thinking about.

-I normally keep stuff like this to myself because people think you are going to off yourself or something drastic like that.
-I actually see the opposite,
I mean...I personally believe that  we die and our should go to heaven with that whole song and dance. but a lot of people believe that when you die...THAT'S IT! (one-trick-pony, please exit to your left of the tram) and then the people who believe that (the smart ones anyway- I believe) have the best life they can live...does that mean if you believe in an afterlife that you shouldn't  try to have a great life? NO!!! I think that every single person should go out and try to have the best life possible all the time.

Because you only have one...

...I think...

...ONE and DONE...
_________________________________________

Fishes

I have not been getting enough sleep at night...
...I can feel that I haven't.
...though, if anyone walks past my room in the middle of the night they say that they see me sleeping.
Whatever the case may be, I feel horrible, like I haven't slept in days.
I understand that my medications are supposed to make me sleepy, but they never used to make me feel THIS tired.
Maybe I am just whining, but I really am feeling horrible.

I just want to go about my life. Not without any problems. I am not asking for a "Perfect" life, but I do wish it was normal...

...ANYWAY...

...If Wishes Were Fishes...

Car

So, today my car got stolen...
...well....actually, yes..it WAS today because a friend came over last night and when i said good night and he went to his car, I followed him outside and my car was still there.
either way, it doesn't matter I suppose...it's just stuff...

UCLA researchers identify new gene involved in Parkinsons disease

UCLA researchers identify new gene involved in Parkinsons disease

TCIMWIW23

I just Bought a copy of Mark Sevillano's Book; The Choice I Made When I Was 23.
It has been in the making for a while, so I hope it is well written, heh heh.

This Blog is called "EveryDay"
Ironically
I Do Not write in it Everyday...


...Not even close.

Okay, I should start writing again, and since my hands can't write for too long, i will type out how nothing happens in my life.
Last night I got some test results back from the mayo clinic in AZ saying that i have trace amounts of Led in my blood, and I hope that that is the problem because that is an easy fix, find out where the led is sowing from (air conditioner?) and toss it.
but if it's not that, it's back to the drawing board.
I remember a time when I was happy, when I just went out and did shit without any sort of problem...I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm still the same person, it is just that I always feel like I am a hinderance on everyone else because I can't run or anything, for the time.
I Really Hope this is something that blows over or fixes itself because honestly, I am tired of going to doctor after doctor, clinic after clinic, hospital after hospital...

...I just want to be normal.

I swear

I remember...there used to be a time when I was happy...

MistAke

Ok Go said it best

For Reelz

okay 
"For Reelz this Tyme!"
I am going to start writing in only this blog because of the google support.
not only that, but I am going to start writing a blog every day...yeah......I'll do it...

pokemon

i am currently in my room listening to some records on LP. (haven;t done it in a while, thought i'd give it a whirl.)

my last few days haven't held too much excitment.

-Church on saturday

-Family dinner at Benihana's

-being at home a lot.

i'm wondering what to do with myself. Even once I get a career or whatever, what do you do with your life?

FB>MS...Duh!

I wrote this on Facebook, thought it was funny, and thought i'd share it on here.

good night world of Facebook...
...MySpace's Replacement...

i think FaceBook is the "Godfather II" of Social Media...
....but that would make Twitter "Godfather III"...and twitter doesn't suck THAT much...

Zombie Film Trailer.

https://www.facebook.com/TheWillShortFilm


the trailer is up! Check it out!