What's The Point?

I need to start doing something with my writing, i have bits and pieces  of ideas and chapters scattered throughout my computer, and  little hand-written notes that I have used to remember certain things...
...I start thinking that there really is NO POINT- well, actually, the point is; experience and people around you that you enjoy during your life.
though the experiences and people won't matter once you are dead, and you, me, anyone will only matter for a little while when we first die.

-I mean, I'm not saying this to depress the hell out of you or anything, it's just something i was thinking about.

-I normally keep stuff like this to myself because people think you are going to off yourself or something drastic like that.
-I actually see the opposite,
I mean...I personally believe that  we die and our should go to heaven with that whole song and dance. but a lot of people believe that when you die...THAT'S IT! (one-trick-pony, please exit to your left of the tram) and then the people who believe that (the smart ones anyway- I believe) have the best life they can live...does that mean if you believe in an afterlife that you shouldn't  try to have a great life? NO!!! I think that every single person should go out and try to have the best life possible all the time.

Because you only have one...

...I think...

...ONE and DONE...
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Fishes

I have not been getting enough sleep at night...
...I can feel that I haven't.
...though, if anyone walks past my room in the middle of the night they say that they see me sleeping.
Whatever the case may be, I feel horrible, like I haven't slept in days.
I understand that my medications are supposed to make me sleepy, but they never used to make me feel THIS tired.
Maybe I am just whining, but I really am feeling horrible.

I just want to go about my life. Not without any problems. I am not asking for a "Perfect" life, but I do wish it was normal...

...ANYWAY...

...If Wishes Were Fishes...

Okay, I should start writing again, and since my hands can't write for too long, i will type out how nothing happens in my life.
Last night I got some test results back from the mayo clinic in AZ saying that i have trace amounts of Led in my blood, and I hope that that is the problem because that is an easy fix, find out where the led is sowing from (air conditioner?) and toss it.
but if it's not that, it's back to the drawing board.
I remember a time when I was happy, when I just went out and did shit without any sort of problem...I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm still the same person, it is just that I always feel like I am a hinderance on everyone else because I can't run or anything, for the time.
I Really Hope this is something that blows over or fixes itself because honestly, I am tired of going to doctor after doctor, clinic after clinic, hospital after hospital...

...I just want to be normal.

Life

everyone has always told me throughout my life that "life goes by fast"

it' not that i didn't believe them, i just don't think i really grasped what they were saying because (for whatever reason) latley i have noticing That very concept.