El Coyote

last night my friend justin came over and we both went to El Coyote in LA for dinner.
afterward we went to get coffee to that justin could wake up a bit. (I was some-what drunk, so coffee made no difference to me)

ebook

I have been working on writing a book/novel (whatever you'd like to call it) for a while now, and though i am slowly getting it done. i feel like i am not going anywhere with it at the same time. i was talking to a friend and he had a great idea, to write a short story first. so I am going to do that, see if i can offer it as a free ebook on some sort of reading majigg.
so now i am putting the main story i was writing on the back burner and starting this short story. and during the time when i am putting the "main story" away for a little while, hopefully i will be able to think of some new stuff for it.

Panic

It is only 1:30am and I can't go back to sleep.

I think I went to bed too early.

Now...if I try to sleep, I start having a panic attack.

...

Adventureland

Just watched Adventureland.

Not sure why I find that movie so appealing...

Winkie

Last night I went to Tribe at The Cause in Brea.

I realize that no one else will agree with me on this I, but I think this was the best Tribe to date.

Though I spent a majority of the night at the merchant table, talking to dean (the creator of the Tribe clothing line) talking to him while he was trying to pawn off sunglasses that had the tribe logo on them.

The speaker for the night was a great guy who was Obviously very well educated and goes by the name of; winkie...I'll leave it at that.

Sleep

Today was the Meds from my regular regiment trying to kill me.
I was so tired, i could barley stand, though, i got through the day and now i am here and i am going to go to bed as soon as i  finish writing this blog.

not sure what to do for the picture, as i took no pictures today, so you get this:

AMY'sStarbucksRiteAidMoviesCruze'sRedRobin

Today I went to  a location called Amy's Cafe in La Mirada for breakfast/lunch thingy with Cruz and mike, this was fun, but i wasn't feeling the best, which is to be expected from my meds. I kept trying to ignore it since i am -normally- feeling like crap in the morning, and i start feeling better (though sleepy) as the day progresses.
It turns out there isn't much that I can do about feeling tired, so i'll just have to deal with that.
after AMY's we stopped at rite aid and got some candy, we stopped at Starbucks where mike introduced me to the best green tea that i have ever......drank....drunk...i'm going with 'drank'. 
from there we went to whittier village cinemas to see the movie; Pacific Rim which was GREAT! I would highly recommend it to anyone who enjoy's action movies, or was a fan of the graphic novel series.
after that we went back to cruze's for a bit, then for dinner we went to Red Robin to try some beer that mike and cruz had been raving about. and it turns out; it was worth raving about, it was a Very enjoyable drink.
all in all, great day.

Try.

Why do the mornings always suck?
ah well
everything is starting to turn upward. I am glad everything has gone from shite to bright (yeah, i JUST thought of that...Yeah....it's pretty cool.)
my friend was trying to get me off the "dirty skittles" (my medication) and i told him that they weren't free. and it went on from there.
i really hope everything goes as planned.

and i am going to try as hard as i can to help....no idea if i can, but i'll try.

GFs

I was thinking today because i was at home, alone, bored.
and i was thinking "what is the point"....not in a suicidal way or anything. i really don't want to kill myself. that won't solve anything. but i mean, what am i doing? what good, or bad am i doing for the world? I don't even feel like I am making a difference at all...
...enough of the sad pathetic stuff...
...It's funny how when you ask someone to do something, there life is "too hectic" and they are "way too busy" for any other work. yet, when asked what they have been doing, they say "nothing."

Something else I began thinking about is the fact that I don't have a girlfriend.
are Girlfriends worth it?
could i even get one if i tried?


"girlfriends are like jobs...you don't quit it with the old one until you have a better one."

Razors

So I have quit shaving with a  multi-blade disposable cartridge razor and i not shave with a LORD S.T. razor. as well as using soap and a badger brush to apply the foam/soap/facewash/cream/whatever.
it's strange because i actually look forward to shaving now. is is an actual enjoyable experience, as apposed to the other normal multi blade razors i used to use, it's a much closer shave.
I like it and I am going to stick with it.

Tandy Dorey

Today Was horrible in the morning and got better as the day went on.
i'll skip the horrible part and go straight to the good part-
around 6pm my friend justin and I went to Hollywood to volunteer at a church that a pastor (Tim Storey) was at. (we know and were asked by Tim when he went to our church.)
Kanye West showed up for no reason and everyone went crazy.
and justin and i saw Andy Dick on sunset blvd...(if you don't know who andy dick is, consider yourself lucky.)

Side Effects

Today was a mix bag day in which i was running around doing stuff that did not matter to me (well, most of it anyway)
watched a few movies (including the film Side Effects, which was a bit too close too home for me to enjoy)
worked out a bit.
read the great gatsby
punched a baby in the face.

4

Went to Kenny's for 4th of July last night. 

Watched the fireworks from a great view.

I hate playing "Ninja" because I suck at it.

Great Food.

Great company 

And such...

clear

this morning is pretty good.
I think it is the first morning in a while that i haven't woken up feeling crappy.
my anxiety is...getting managed
my Back hurts...less.
and Parkinson's doesn't really cause anything painful, it's mostly just horrible.

not looking forward to work tomorrow...not that i don't enjoy it, but after what happened last week, i am skeptical about it.
i need to get this anxiety settled and figured out before anything else, because it is getting in the way.

it really is.