Tuesday, October 14, 2014

1988

I am not sure what to do with myself. Born in 1988 Give or take. You are not crying for me- oh argentina. when you smile- you smile with all of your teeth at once. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Oh Tokyo Police Club-----okay- now the actual Blog entry starts; Alright- well, I am really in the situation of not knowing what to do with myself. I can just go through life and be bored, i dunno, I feel like I might commit suicide if i do that....I realize that I may have mentioned killing myself right there, and I don't Actually ever want to kill myself, or hurt ANYONE for that matter. In fact, it almost seems that committing suicide is something that lazy people do because they feel pain, or don't see a point to anything (or whatever your situation is) and they (more or less) say "fuck it" and "get acquainted with 'Dirty Harry'." Either way, my depression is just boredom [I'm sure] I am in bed most mornings when I wake up and I think: "What is the point of getting out of bed?" Not in a "Eff the World" sort of way, more of- Bored, I actually have NOTHING to do if I get out of bed. i need something or someone and to make it clear- I AM NOT going to hurt/kill myself or anyone else...EVER. So if you read the first few lines of this, freaked out, then skimmed to the end, I should write more often... ...pokemon...

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Bill burr

You’re a kid, your whole life is awesome. It’s awesome, right? You had no money, no ID, no cell phone, no nothing, no keys to the house. You just ran outside into the woods. You weren’t scared of nothing. I challenge you to do that as an adult. All your IDs, all your credit cards — just run out of the house with no phone, turn the corner where you can’t see your house, and not have a full on panic attack.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Awake*

Why am still up?
I'm not doing anything...
...I began trying to think of ways that I could come up with $200 for reasons that I will not disclose at the current time.

Hmm...

Well, I suppose I. Should just try to go to sleep now.

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

...I am not that Lucky...

09-25-14 (journal[?])


I would first like to point out that I am typing this on a
 QWERTY keyboard that is NOT pressure sensitive, the iPad, great machine, but I find it to be one of my own faults to be that  it is much harder to type on a completely flat screen than it is to type on a normal keyboard.
But it is the way we've been groomed growing up I suppose.

Either way. I suppose the real reason I am writing this is to vent a bit. First. I feel like I am getting older too fast. I'm not saying that I am "old" ...I am saying that if feels as though I one day woke up and I was 25, 
I can remember bits and pieces of it, but it all seems sort or blurry.

Either way. For the first time ever, i'am becoming nostalgic for my High SChool days...and I feel ridiculous for it.
So in my search of nostalgia  remnants of High School I began Messaging a girl I was good friends with in High School named ----- I'll spare you the boredom of the entire story, but I will explain that she (at one time) liked me, ----- had a boyfriend, who was a good friend of mine, so I kept my distance. 
I mean, I really liked -----... But I knew she liked me, more than a friend, so I told her that we couldn't be together and whether or not we were together, she should explain to her Boyfriend that she liked me. We each went our own ways after graduation. I heard that she had an eating disorder or something at some point of college. In which I thought that calling to make sure she was alright would be smart...but it would also be hypocritical since I knew that the reason she was acting out May have something to do with me. And I didn't even shake up that beehive. 

So tonight I struck up a conversation online a and I she told me she was married, I knew already. And I am guessing that she said something about her liking me in high school, because he no longer wanted her to speak to me. On one hand I am sort of mad because I didn't have any sexual....ANYTHING built up inside of me for Kelsi. But on the other hand, kelsi is a greAt person, and would be amazing to spend the rest of your life with... But I am not that lucky...

Saturday, July 19, 2014

So have you ever wondered; "what is Andrew doing right now?" yeah, me neither. but, it till be answered anyway, i will have the webcam on - live-streaming at different times of the day, so if you bored enough, just check it out! there isn't signing in or anything. you just go to the site and a window comes up with the live feed... https://oncast.com/d/ce91f

Friday, July 18, 2014

I just finished watching The First Pirates of the Carrabbean and i have the same opinion of the 3 movies as I did with the 3 matrix films; THEY SHOULD HAVE STOPPED AT THE FIRST ONE....